it kills me how my dad always goes ‘im going to buy this, lets go shopping on thursday’ gets me excited but then it turns out that he isn’t. then he goes ‘i want to sleep’ then i tell him what happens and tears tries to escape, but then he sees how im feeling and then hes willing to go. but then, he says ‘but i have no money’ IF YOU HAVE NO MONEY DONT SAY YOURE GOING TO BUY SHIT. fuck sakes. so then i go ‘fine you can go by yourself and pick up rose (my sister which finishes work at 9.30pm)then he goes ‘okay lets go’ but then i just dont feel like going. it pisses me off so much. and then the fact that i make him feel bad which kills me. but a part of me is saying ‘he deserves it’ and another part saying ‘just let it go, hes old’ it just gets me teared up. we dont always get the chance to go out, and there he is ruining the time. i dont think he realizes that i only have 1 dad and im so happy i have him and how excited iam to go sshopping with him.